Hurting my sister was not my intention. Shame on me? Yes, me!
The Rocky Mountains are still beautiful! Some things never change; some things do!
I have changed. I am not speaking of the obvious aging process. I am talking about something else.
A new awareness, a new sensitivity has been growing inside my self. I became profoundly aware of it during these past two weeks.
We encountered different intensities of Care, from careless to care more.
- Wonderful meals and visits with family. Lots of Care, high intensities.
- Treated like royalty by a Wal-Mart checker in Montrose, CO. She Cared about the customer and it showed. She Cared a lot!
- Ignored and nearly invisible to a proprietor of a winery in, Palisade. No Care there. At best a neutral experience. Won’t go back.
- Welcomed and assisted with open arms, at a motel in, Glenwood Springs.
I have become very sensitive to how others are doing Love and at what intensity.
….but most importantly is the increased sensitivity to my own actions, words, and thoughts.
Just when I thought I had things pretty well figured out, I sent a comment aimed directly at something near and dear to one of my sisters. As soon as this barbed utterance left my lips, a sinking feeling struck me right in the middle of my solar plexus.
Hurting my sister was not my intention… but here it is… the Intent to Please was not riding on my action! If it had been I would have kept my mouth shut. Instead I violated Love. It wasn’t a huge violation but a violation all the same.
I apologized, she forgave me. She is a great sister!
I know what it feels like to be the hurtee and I don’t ever want to be the hurter.
This increased sensitivity to my own actions is mighty powerful medicine.
Being human, I will probably slip-up again but I’ll tell you what… I will know it in the blink of an eye and in the next blink I can begin to fix it.
….and how is your 30 Day Connection Challenge going?